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Like Sazerac, if my story can offer anyone any inspiration, any hope, any consolation, I want it here to be available to whoever needs & reads it.
A True Story Titled "The Five Dollar Truck" (lol) by FreudianSlip: One afternoon in Oct. 1986, I was invited to go out drinking with a couple of friends and turned them down to go out job hunting. I immediately felt "Death" and the satisfaction that "It" would secure a victory in taking the life of one of my friends. Having a (self) righteous attitude toward the spritual and our power over evil, I challenged "Death" and felt that the answer to defeating it would be to go along but the price for my own victory would be on my head, so to speak. I went. We had an afternoon of hitting bars, laughing and having fun and on the way home traffic suddenly got heavy and the driver, in an attempt to avoid rear-ending someone, tried instead to make a right hand turn at 40 mph. Of course he did not make the turn and instead, crossed the street he was attempting to turn on and was headed into a palm tree. It was here that time slowed down and I had time to "see" all the options and consequences of trying to keep myself out of harm's way. There was no center seat belt in the old pick-up we were in so I was not wearing one. I knew I would go through the windshield. Turning around to perhaps grab the back of the seat, I "saw" that if I did, the counter force of the impact would break my hands. I turned back around and decided that if I could just duck behind the driver's arm, I could aim my chest at his forearm and my face at his hand in a way that would keep me from being seriously hurt and even keep my glasses intact. I scooched over a little and it was then that I "saw" the passenger, a single father who was the only person worthy and capable of caring for his daughter (in his family) "get crushed to death as a result of the angle of impact into the palm tree". I did the only thing I could to save him and turned the wheel to make the truck hit the tree from the front rather than from the front fenderwell and his door. The driver then looked at me and saw what I had intended to do to save myself and said "I don't think so!" He moved his forearm down to keep me from hitting it and the moment of impact arrived...there was nothing else I could to except to make sure my face hit his hand at least, instead of the steering wheel. I broke one bone in the back of his hand with the area of my face that hit it, just to the left of my nose & as above my teeth and jaw as I could manage. The steering wheel impacted with my chest just on the right side of my sternum and I felt ribs break. A policeman was just behind us and red lights started flashing immediately. Medics were called to the scene but I refused transport to the hospital in order to be able to be able to pick up my son from the sitter's. I had broken a couple of ribs before and wasn't worried to much about having to wrap them myself to heal. The driver and passenger were otherwise unharmed. I woke up the next day choking on a blood clot and struggling to breathe. My nose was clogged on one side and I blew out more blood with what little strength I could put into it. My chest was swollen, a large goose egg right at the base of my sternum. Knowing I was hurt worse than I had originally thought, I got dressed, got my son off to kindergarten and left the house to head to the ER only to meet the driver on my sidewalk as he approached my front door. "Hey there!" I said, smiling. "I sold the truck for Five Dollars this morning." he said to me. "What on earth would you do that for?" I asked. "Because the cops that were on the scene yesterday were friends of mine and they did not issue any citations or even file an accident report. The truck was not in my name yet so I sold it for five dollars to a friend of mine that you don't know, by the way, so that if you try to go to the hospital for your injuries, you can't file for any coverage through my insurance. As far as anyone who matters in a legal sense is concerned, the accident never happened and you can't prove that I ever owned the truck, much less that you were in it when it "supposedly" crashed." The look on his face was something I can't describe, just something totally devoid of feeling. It really suprised me, since we had been friends for at least five years. "Well the truth is," I told him, "I am hurt worse than I had originally thought and I am on my way to the hospital right now to get looked over. I coughed up a blood clot when I got up and I am having trouble breathing, but I never even thought to claim any coverage on your insurance. I chose to go with you knowing there was danger involved and I take responsibility for what I've done to myself. You want to give me a ride?" "You're kidding right?" He answered, "I am not giving you a ride!" As I walked past him and out of my yard to catch the next bus, he continued, "You can't prove I wrecked that truck you know! Nothing you can do can prove that I ever even owned it!" When I got to the hospital, I was looked over and X-rayed. The X-rays revealed a fracture to my sternum about 2 1/2-3 inches long. The right side of my rib cage was crushed and shattered. There were more breaks than could be counted. Ribs were broken away from the right side of my spine down my back. The Dr. confirmed a punctured lung and told me the only reason I had not drowned in my own blood was becasue the bottom of the lung where it was punctured was full of fluid (pneumonia). He poked, prodded and listened some more to my chest, back and abdomen with his stethoscope. He looked around and asked how I got there. I told him I came on the bus. He looked totally suprised and asked me "You WALKED in here?!" I nodded my head as he shook his own in disbelief. "What?" I asked. "Pardon me if I seem a little suprised" he said, his face going a little pale, "but people who have suffered the injuries you have normally arrive on a stretcher and they are usually DOA! I find it hard to believe that you are even conscious much less that you came here on the bus!" "Its the truth" I told him, "you can ask the nurses out front. They'll tell you I walked in alone." "Excuse me for a moment." he said as he left the room. He came back a little paler even and asked me if I had insurance. I told him no and he asked, as he helped me off the examining table if I would come with him, please. He walked with me to the exit of the ER and told me for me to even be alive and conscious showed him that I had the strongest will to survive that he had ever witnessed in all his life and that he was sure with that will that I would probably be OK eventually, provided I could get the proper medical care it was going to take with the injuries I had but state law allowed hospitals to refuse treatment to patients without insurance because of lack of payments that so often occur in such cases and I should seek assistance elsewhere. He gave me a light push toward the exit door and told me "Good luck." "You're kidding right?" I asked in total ignorance (lol). "No, I am not." he answered. His face almost looked sad but quickly turned to that devoid of feeling look that I had seen in my friend earlier when I stared at him in disbelief. "Good luck" he repeated as he motioned me to leave. He turned and walked away. The same thing happened at every hospital in the city. They would continue initial tests and by the time I had gone through them all, I had an almost complete list of my injuries and the well wishes of the Dr's to survive it on my own. A fractured sternum, a crushed rib cage, ribs broken away from my spine, ruptured sinuses in the left side of my face, a few teeth broken at the roots, a ruptured stomach, a displaced kidney and gall bladder (the kidney was thrown into the front part of my abdomen while the gall bladder ended up underneath my right shoulder blade), a lacerated liver...all of my internal organs they told me were at least shifted but probably cut, or ruptured as well. To this day, no one knows just where my spleen is lol. I had whiplash so bad that my spine was almost "S" shaped. It was months before I could stand up straight and to this day, my neck sits "just inside" being even with my spine. If I focus on it it tingles and is uncomfortable. One Dr. was at least kind enough to prescribe me Tylenol with codeine for the pain (which ended up further damaging the already damaged kidney) and a medication for nausea that would enable me to keep food in my stomach, provided I ate as little as possible in order to allow it to heal. Like I could eat ANYTHING without literally feeling it run down through my abdomen and into my right leg LOL! With the placement of my kidney, I could not lay on my left side without having it cut off circulation directly through my aorta. Laying on my back would collapse the damaged lung, laying on my stomach would be a sure way to kill myself with all the broken and splintered ribs I had so I was left with no choice but to lay on my right side in order to be able to both breathe and heal. I cut up the muscles in my back in the process with all the ribs that were broken there and the swelling of my rib cage and abdomen left me looking like a barrel with a goose egg on it...on legs, with arms, and with a head perched on top. I only got through it with faith in God and myself and earnest prayer that if my life should be spared I would make it a worthwhile one. I used meditation to focus on various inner parts and literally will and feel myself heal. A year or so later, I found a hospital (county) that would admit me for surgery to move my kidney and gall bladder back to their proper positions. Fearing going under an anesthetic, I called my sister in KY who was, at that time attenting a church that believed in faith healing. She got the whole congregation praying for me and the day before I was to be admitted for surgery, I was sitting on the couch with my (then) boyfriend watching TV when I felt a slight "push" against my back. Thinking he was putting his arm around me and not wanting to have my hair pulled (lol) I sat up a little in order for him to place his arm behind me. When I went to lean back, I felt "two fingers and a thumb" press into my spine, keeping me upright. I waited for whatever and then felt pressure from them again except this time my whole body went nearly limp, almost numb. Kinda thinking "Huh?" before I could turn to look at him, I was "answered" with what I can only describe as thought with "Its OK, can you hold this relaxed state?" I thought back, "Sure, so long as you aren't going to hurt me!" I felt a hand on my lower back next...a full open, five fingered hand right where my kidney belonged. I was asked (again with thought) "Is this OK with you?" "Just don't hurt me" I thought. I felt "the hand" enter my back, it was cool and soothing. I felt it grab my right kidney, gently pull it back into place, and then let it go. It then exited my back and remained against my skin for another second as I was "asked" again "OK?" "OK!" I thought back at it and then the "hands" pulled away and were gone. I turned to my boyfriend who had been sitting next to me this whole time (oblivious to all but the TV as he was) and told him, "Hey! Feel the hollow in my back!" He looked at me and the most startled expression I have ever witnessed on anyone swept over his face. He jumped up off the couch, stepped back away from me and asked in fright "What's the matter with you? You're glowing!" "I'm glowing? Really?! How cool! Come feel the hollow in my back!" "Not until you tell me what is going on! You're GLOWING!" I explained to him what had just happened and he asked me if I thought it was aliens (lol). I told him I had never considered it could have been, that I thought it was an angel sent to heal me because of all the prayer going on for me in KY and again urged him to feel the hollow that the displaced kidney had left in my back. He stepped cautiously toward me and reached around and felt "the hollow". "Its GONE!" "Yes, I know!" I told him, isn't this WONDERFUL! I don't have to have surgery! I don't have to go under anesthesia!" I jumped up and down in pure joy while he stood there looking at me like I was diseased or something. I stopped jumping up and down and looked at him and asked "Don't you think this is great?" He answered "Its just WEIRD!" and then he literally ran out of the house. He only came back to get his belongings and tell me he was moving in with his friend Bryan, that what had happened was too trippy and he could not stay with a woman who "glowed" like I had earlier. I did not care, lol I was healed and a trip the next day to the hospital confirmed that my kidney, indeed had been returned to its natural position inside my body. The Dr. there did not believe me any more than most everyone else I have ever told this story to even though he had solid proof that he did not have to cut me open as he had previously proven he had to. It doesn't matter to me who believes...I know what it was I felt and I know that my kidney (still damaged but functional) is back where it belongs. Since my gall bladder posed no threat to killing me the way my kidney did in its interference with my aorta, I opted to leave it be for the time being. Eight years later when I was trying more seriously than I ever had to rebuild the muscles in my back, I was getting so violently ill whenever I reached a certain point in muscular strength that I would vomit seemingly gallons of bile. It was then that I met my Guatemalan Healer, Medicine Man and friend, Carlos. In the process of returning my gall bladder to my frontal abdominal cavity, Carlos placed two fingers and his thumb into my spine as I lay on my stomach on my bed. He pushed them gently into my spine and my whole body went limp and almost numb. I heard his words in my head as I remembered the "hands" with my kidney before he even spoke them. "Can you hold this state of relaxation?" he asked. "Oh yes!" I answered, smiling the biggest smile. He very gently, with his other hand, pryed my gall bladder out from under my shoulder blade and moved it gently down the to the lower right of my rib cage. I heard it "plop" into my abdominal cavity and he told me I should be ok, that it is not exactly where it belongs but that was the best he could do without being a surgeon. I related the story of "the hands" and my kidney to him and he laughed. "I am sure it was angels." he told me. "Angels from my country!" he added with his wide and child-like grin. I have never been sick a day in my life since with the exception of your normal run of the mill colds and a touchy resperatory system that I try to keep healthy. Well, not true... About a year ago, I went to see a Dr' here in Texas for illness I was suffering from complications related to an ulcer and way too much stress (sleep deprivation caused by Rex's snoring). As he poked around on my abdominal cavity I could not help but notice a most puzzled look on his face as he poked again and again. The look of pure puzzlement just kept getting more intense. "Things are not where they are supposed to be are they?" I asked him with a smile. "Uh, No, they're not!" he answered. Before he could comment any further, I told him about the accident I was in and how my internal organs had all been shifted. "Shifted." he echoed. "Yes, that makes sense now." A look of relief replaced the look of utter confusion and he continued on with his exam, shaking his head every now and then when he could not find things where "they belong" I could only smile and give thanks that I am alive. : ) I believe in the powers of faith, prayer, and the will to live. My motto in life has become "Live every minute as if it is your last...it just could be!" Here's to enjoying everything life has to offer...the good, the bad and everything in between. : ) Love , Hugs & Peace, Moni http://members.aol.com/lasttrueprincess/images/ltp4.gif |
Moni, I believe in one thing, I´m glad you made it!!!
Thank you for your story of life.. ------------------ http://wolfgir.najk.net/name.gif WOLF WINS EVERY FIGHT BUT ONE, AND IN THAT ONE, HE DIES |
Thank you Wolf!
Love, Hugs, Peace & A Kiss On Your Brow http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...miles/wink.gif http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...es/biggrin.gif Moni http://members.aol.com/lasttrueprincess/images/ltp4.gif |
Wow...
man everyone here is so http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...s/coollook.gif I feel small in comparison... The HumbleDawg ------------------ http://publish.hometown.aol.com/tobb...s/rudedawg.jpg http://www.phpshop.net/images/bg2guy/cov09.jpg The RudeDawg Known in these Forgotten Realms as Perin LightEyes and my girlfriends, Pamila and Phil |
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Man, I feel like the road you traveled was MUCH harder than the one I went down! Glad we are all here to share our love of life with one another, that's for sure! Love, Hugs & Peace, Moni http://members.aol.com/lasttrueprincess/images/ltp4.gif |
I'm taking you (and your SO) to Bedford with me in Aug so's we can meet Saz...
go to the blues festival... http://cwm.ragesofsanity.com/contrib.../rock_band.gif The GettinTogetherDawg http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...s/coollook.gif ------------------ http://publish.hometown.aol.com/tobb...s/rudedawg.jpg http://www.phpshop.net/images/bg2guy/cov09.jpg The RudeDawg Known in these Forgotten Realms as Perin LightEyes and my girlfriends, Pamila and Phil [This message has been edited by RudeDawg (edited 05-07-2001).] |
Sounds like a plan! My E-mail address is available through my profile here, you can write me when you are ready, or anytime for that matter!
Going to bed now http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...iles/frown.gif See you later http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...iles/smile.gif Moni http://members.aol.com/lasttrueprincess/images/ltp4.gif |
Bumping this back up in case it was missed by anyone who may want to read it.
(Yes I am vain and need confirmation of my worth to the world) j/k http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...miles/wink.gif http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...es/biggrin.gif Moni |
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We luvs ya, Moni! The LuvDawg http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...miles/hihi.gif ------------------ http://publish.hometown.aol.com/tobb...s/rudedawg.jpg http://www.phpshop.net/images/bg2guy/cov09.jpg The RudeDawg Known in these Forgotten Realms as Perin LightEyes and my girlfriends, Pamila and Phil |
LOL Aw Thank you RudeDawg! I love you too! http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...s/EEhearts.gif
I told Rex about Bedford while we were out today...he is into it! http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...es/biggrin.gif Moni [This message has been edited by Moni (edited 05-07-2001).] |
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I think the only thing I can say is 'Sweet Jesus' and be happy you are with us to share your story. BK ------------------ http://publish.hometown.aol.com/tobb...emonknight.gif The Black Storm Cloud of the Night Consort to a Queen Champion of Truth, Justice and Cloudy's Way Captain of the Knights of the Golden Dragons Heart, Mind, and Soul Offical Wizard and Warrior Questioner |
You don't expect me to read all that do you???
//*looks at frowning crowd Okey okey I will see you guys later... http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...iles/smile.gif ------------------ http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...ievalsmile.gif Keldorn's Younger brother |
Moni ! I haven't had more than 10 mn in a row to come here for the last two days (RL and BG II hooked me in their claws http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...es/biggrin.gif ). So I only flown over your post, I will read it thoroughly tomorow - just wanted to tell you for now that I am SOOO glad you are here with us. http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/No...ons/icon14.gif
I have my own gray story, if not as bad as yours - maybe I will muster the courage to share it one day ? ------------------ http://fc1ddq.free.fr/stan2.gif http://www.tgeweb.com/images/forum/icons/ninja1.gif The world is my oyster ! And now I have the knives to open it ... |
Okey I just it all, it's a very interesting story, I happen to be one of those lost souls that has lost their faith in God and I always envy people who keep their faith. I'm glad you eventually became better, and this "friend" of yours and the doctors make me very sad, that there can exist such evil is this world.
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Moni sweetheart,
I got things I want to say to both you and Saz, I'll be mailing you guys and others soon ok. As it is my eyes are pounding and my heads watering from e-mailing for nearly 12 hours. I just can't squint into the thing no more today. I'll catch you though ok. Love ya baby. http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...iles/smile.gif ------------------ One love, peace. |
BK,
Thank you! http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...s/EEhearts.gif Moiraine, All gray stories are bad. I believe that what counts are the lessons we learn from from them and what of them that we carry with us throughout the rest of our lives. http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...iles/smile.gif I would like to read your story if you ever feel like posting it~no pressure though~if you never want to expose it here, I'll fully understand. If you ever feel like writing it down and sharing it in a more private setting, my e-mail address is here in my profile and you can trust me to keep it as secret as you want it to be. Row Firecam, I HAD lost my faith...that accident was a big kick in the pants letting me know I needed it back! Thank you for your post and just so you don't carry that saddness around with you, let me tell you that: # 1, Bill Clinton did away with laws that kept poor people from getting emergency medical attention. ER's can no longer turn away people dying and in need the way I and many others have been. http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...es/biggrin.gif #2 Ten years after the accident, I was minding my own business, going to a friend's house when like with "the hands", I felt just a presence and was "asked" if my friend dying at the hands of the police who had helped him would be justice enough for what he did to me to be forgiven. I thought it was weird but had to agree, it would be justice, indeed. Well, about three days later, I got a phone call from another friend of ours asking me if I had heard about Billy. Not having heard anything I said no and proceeded to slip slowly down the wall and onto the floor as he told me that Billy had been drinking and was issued a DUI that would cost him his job as a security guard. He got irate and took his gun down to the local convenience store and shot up their ice machine. Cops were called to the scene and instead of handing over his gun and allowing himself to be arrested, Billy turned his backs on the cops and started walking home. They called after him to stop and he ignored them. Three shots were fired, two of them into his head and one into his knee. All three officers fired on him, only the youngest one shot him in the leg. The other two, veteran police officers and friends of Billy's took him out. Was it pity for a man who would have lost everything if he had lost his job or contempt for a man who showed them no respect when they had allowed him for years to get away with drunk driving, accidents, and who knows what else? I don't know and I don't want to but I had to think that the presence I felt, unless it was "Death" was Billy himself asking for forgiveness for what he had done. I gave it but the way it was presented to me, I have to feel like I gave it for a price and that doesn't really feel good. Another lesson learned: Forgiveness should be given freely. http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...miles/wink.gif Last week, I contacted the other friend from the accident, the single father guy. He told me that his oldest grand-daughter (who was just an infant when Billy was killed) says that he (Billy) lives with them and she talks to him all the time. She says that he said he is there to watch over her and her mother and to keep them safe. Spooky! Charlie, take your time, sweety, I will always be here for you! Love ya! Love, Hugs & Peace to EVERYONE! http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...es/biggrin.gif Moni http://members.aol.com/lasttrueprincess/images/ltp4.gif |
Whoa, Moni! So now we know "the rest of the story!"
I would say that rough justice was served. As warm and compassionate as I can be, I am cold as ice when it comes to serving justice on a renegade. I am glad you were able to give him forgiveness, as doubtless he needs as much positive energy as possible. As the old proverb says, "The mills of the gods grind slowly, yet they grind exceedlingly small." Ah well, maybe with the next turning of the wheel...who knows? http://www.wizardrealm.com/images/saz1.gif |
"The truck was not in my name yet so I sold it for five dollars to a friend of mine that you don't know, by the way, so that if you try to go to the hospital for your injuries, you can't file for any coverage through my insurance. As far as anyone who matters in a legal sense is concerned, the accident never happened and you can't prove that I ever owned the truck, much less that you were in it when it "supposedly" crashed."
Wow you got considerable self control. I would have beat his ass right there. ------------------ http://www.angelfire.com/rpg/castlet...ifs/devil2.gif Meet my lawyer. |
Wow. Amazing story. Fascinating story. Sorry... I'm speechless. Just wanted to say Thank You for sharing!
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Caleb,
LOL! Don't think that later on I did not consider what it would have felt like to stomp on him a few times for being so cold about the whole thing! I was really pretty shocked that such a close friend of five years would turn on me like a rabid dog in that way but I was in no condition to throw a slap across his face much less beat his ass. Besides, I felt myself at fault for getting hurt to begin with, having challenged "Death" the way I did and almost losing my life for it. I could have stayed home to begin with and just let him live with having killed his best friend since their childhood days...I just couldn't. http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...iles/smile.gif Bilqis, Thank YOU! You are very welcome! Love, Hugs & Peace, Moni http://members.aol.com/lasttrueprincess/images/ltp4.gif |
Bilqis,
A long over-due Thank You goes out to you! If Saz had not bumped his own thread today, I would have missed your reply to mine! So sorry! Hugs! Moni DOH! I just read I had posted a thank you to you already in the above post! Well that makes this a double thank you! http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...miles/wink.gif ------------------ http://members.aol.com/lasttrueprincess/images/ltp4.gif [This message has been edited by Moni (edited 06-12-2001).] |
Does everyone here on this board have some deep, soulsearching, faithconfirming, joyspreading, long story except for me?
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Not everyone needs one.
http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...miles/wink.gif You must be fine! http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...es/biggrin.gif Moni |
Bumping up for Moni...DEFINITELY worth reading for those who haven't seen it before!
We have many a brave soul here, no? http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...iles/smile.gif http://www.wizardrealm.com/images/saz.gif Oh, DUUHHHHHH it was already BUMPED!!! LOL... no wonder I couldn't find it among the "May" posts! http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/noncgi/smiles/485.gif "S" [This message has been edited by Sazerac (edited 06-12-2001).] |
Oops! Sorry Saz!
I said I was j/k in your thread! Thanks though! Hugs! Moni ------------------ http://members.aol.com/lasttrueprincess/images/ltp4.gif |
Moni that is the most Heart wrenching story I have every read. I never realized this had happened to you. The story quite literally had me crying when I read it. Thank you for sharing this with us.
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Wasn't here a whole lot in May, apparently... missed all the good stuff. A truly inspiring and courageous story Moni!! http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/noncgi/smiles/wow.gif
You must have a strong will to survive and amazing fortitude. You must have incredible strength now after surviving, nah, triumphing over that challenge. I salute you! And hope to meet you at the Blues Festival. You sound like someone I would really enjoy meeting!! http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...es/biggrin.gif ------------------ http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...es/Charean.jpg Defender for the Light - Goodness knows there is a lot of Dark out there!! - Where are my matches?!? Wandering Soul - Finding my life's calling is Bodhisattva Looking for lost brain - I left it only for a moment....and there it goes... rolling under the table!! Renunciate in Training Trucker Punkin Fluffy |
BladeMaster,
I am so sorry it made you cry! Rex and I were talking about this just today about how I could be riddled with scars or even cripple. I am neither (well if you look at my ribcage you can see that it is shorter on one side) and I am grateful to have survived it this way and to be able to share it with other people. I learned a lot while recovering, not just about living my life in a way that I thought it would do me and the rest of the world some good but also about self healing...the physical as well as the emotional. I came out of it a better person. A MUCH better person. Hugs, My Friend, Moni ------------------ http://members.aol.com/lasttrueprincess/images/ltp4.gif [This message has been edited by Moni (edited 06-12-2001).] [This message has been edited by Moni (edited 06-13-2001).] |
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Yes my will to survive seems to be strong but at times I have felt like I am not allowed to die until I do something (what it is, I have yet to figure out completely lol)...my BP is regularly 80 over 60...something that you see in people on life support however, I am never sitting still, always on the go and always thinking...I think there are a couple of times this body should have keeled over but until I am let to stop, I'll keep living and as happily as I can. http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...miles/wink.gif I think it will be totally awesome if you can make the blues festival! You are someone I would like to meet in person myself! Punkin Hugs (LOL) Moni ------------------ http://members.aol.com/lasttrueprincess/images/ltp4.gif |
I am glad you shared this with us, Moni. You are a much stronger person than I would have been under the same circumstances.
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And my real name is Monique. http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...iles/smile.gif Good to have you as someone I can call my friend, John! Hugs! Moni |
Moni, I am saddened by your personal trials, and angered at your treatment by both friends and "the establishment."
You have suffured much more than most, yet you remain emminently approachable and helpful to others. I applaud your accomplishments, both in your recovery, and in being a wellspring of concern, compassion and love, directed outward to everyone you meet. I am honored to know you, though it be only through this medium. "I dub thee a treasure, for tis what thou art, to all who knowest thee!" <marquee behavior=alternate>http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/noncgi/smiles/elf.gif</marquee> ------------------ http://www.clantoa.com/images/DawnChaserSig.gif |
The curtains ironed and the laundry started, I had to come back while I still have a few minutes before I need to get some sleep.
DawnChaser, I am glad I did. I would not want you to remained saddened or angered by my trials without me having the chance tonight to tell you not to be. For as bad as it all was, it was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. I learned to cherish every minute of life that I have, to love and respect the world around me and to forgive those who are blind to anything good, to send good feelings in their direction in hopes that they too may witness the glory in actually living that I have. Things have sinced changed, thanks to Bill Clinton, and "the establisment" cannot, for the most part, treat people the way I and others were treated. Everything got better. It gets better every day, esp when through this medium, I can meet someone as wonderful as I think you are. Who knows, I may be in CA one day or you may be in TX...it could happen and if it ever does, I would make it a point to seek you out in person so that I could give you the hug that I would like to be able to give you right now and tell you to your face, as I mean it right now, "Thank you for becoming one of the good things in my life. I will cherish it for as long as I live." Provided I don't become a victim of Alzheimers and forget everything, you, I will always remember. http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...iles/smile.gif Counterpoint, that goes for you too, ::sniff:: ::sniff:: you articulate little bastard! I can't match that if I tried LOL! http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...miles/wink.gif Goodnight and Sweet Dreams, My Friend. http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...iles/smile.gif http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...s/EEhearts.gif Moni ------------------ http://members.aol.com/lasttrueprincess/images/ltp4.gif [This message has been edited by Moni (edited 06-13-2001).] |
Just like Sazerac's post that I just read today, I just read this one today as well. I only wanted to let you know that I have read it. I cannot say anything. I am not very good at expressing myself, sometimes. Thank you for sharing that. You are becoming one of my favorite people on this forum.
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Thats amazing..I wish I was one of those people who recived miracales cause i have been in plenty conidtions to need them,and yes I belive deeply in god. Well then again i wouldnt want to have my whole insides wrecked. Hehe "And to this day no one knows where my spleen is" hehe, good to have some comdey in such a tale ------------------ http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...ranger_001.gif Hunter, Scout, Warrior, Woodsmen, Archer |
Moni, you do INDEED have a strong will to survive! knowing me, i probably would have let myself get thrown out the windshield, thinking 'i can take it, no challene for one such as me!', which would surely have been bad. and your 'friend', doenst seem like much of a friend, Mrs. Glowing Lady! i didnt really understand the last few lines of your story, ive been up too long, but the rest was truly inspiring!
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Larry,
Thank you and Bless You, My Friend! Love You! http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...s/EEhearts.gif Moni ------------------ http://members.aol.com/lasttrueprincess/images/ltp4.gif |
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I am glad you haven't had your whole insides wrecked! http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...es/biggrin.gif Thank you too for enjoying the comedic aspect of my writing...it is easy to laugh at now, mainly because without having that happen to me, I would probably still be the miserable wretch I grew up as. Life is beautiful. http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...es/biggrin.gif Hugs! http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...s/EEhearts.gif Moni ------------------ http://members.aol.com/lasttrueprincess/images/ltp4.gif |
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Thank you! True, my "friend" as I thought he was turned out to be not much of a friend at all. That happens sometimes and it would have been better to know prior to all that happening lol but, c'est la vie...it all needed to happen. And that's Ms. Glowing Lady Thank You! http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...miles/wink.gif Don't wiorry about not understanding the last part of it...if you re-read it after you've rested you may and if you want to quote it and ask me about it, I'll do my best to explain...or you can just fugedaboutit and let it come to you in its own time. http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...miles/wink.gif I am glad you and everyone who has read it and taken the time to respond to it has enjoyed it or been inspired by it. That alone makes its happening to me worth all that much more! Hugs! http://www.tgeweb.com/cgi-bin/ubb/no...s/EEhearts.gif Moni ------------------ http://members.aol.com/lasttrueprincess/images/ltp4.gif |
It must have refreshed your thoughts alot to write about this! I am thankful to be able to have heard about this part of your life. It has touched me also. I sometimes wish that I could express myself better in writeing. So I could truly let everyone know in the right words how I feel. I dont have them here..Your a wonderful person and thank you for building up my personal faith. Between you, Ziroc, and Saz reading these post's in the last couple of days have given me alot of "experience points" in life! Some day I will make an attempt to tell you all mine..
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