Charlie, I
can understand where you are coming from, my entire life has been the same way, I have nothing from my childhood, nor from 6 months ago, everytime I think I am going to make it, I get pulled right back down, so I sypathize with you, but know also, you are not alone in your misery
if you ever just need to gripe, or other words not appropriate for the forum, just give me a holler, my ear is here [img]smile.gif[/img]