[Zuvio]

Man, I get like that all the time. Just recently I finished viewing BTVS on a sunday evening, cuz there was nothing else for me to do, I was alone. When it was finally over (at the end of every season I might add), I got all mooshy and stuff, felt empty and alone, wondering what they will do next, why am I alone, why won't anyone call or anything.....

I'm single again (my last GF didn't really work out, another story) and that plays a part too. A friend of mine has been in a realtionship for 6 years now or maybe even longer. They've moved in together and everytime I come over, I feel the feeling of missing something. Having someone to share your life with is truly a blessing, but also really rare to find (for some of us anyhow).

But whenever I get that feeling of universally loneliness, you know what I do? I start a ruckus!! I grab the cats and start playing with them, running through the house like maniacs, they love it. I put on music real loud (but not sentimental stuff, just plain SOAD or house-music, things that get your spirit up. I go watch a comedy, an anime (not akira!!! -> major depression afterwards), or simply watch dumb-TV. Point of all this is to get your attention away from the thinking, because the thinking is what gets you down. Now it's OK for us to think every now and then, but when it happens every night, it starts to get a little neurotic, me thinks.

So OK, we're all reasonably smart people, we are accomplishing one thing or another and it's all good, but not having a partner can gnaw on you on the lonely days, especially christmas (thank god I still life with my mom ). It's the natural urge to propagation. Just don;t resort to drinking like I once did and you'll be fine.....