[Bungleau]

At the end of it all, you have to answer to one person: yourself. If you're comfortable with where things sit, then it's okay.

For those who believe in a higher being, that being knows what's inside you, and what you truly feel. That counts more than any petty person alive on this earth.

I suspect it may be time for you to make your peace with your grandmother. I suggest deciding what final things you'd like to say to her before she passes on, and then say them. Acknowledge that she may or may not care about your feelings or thoughts, and that she may not believe they're true. Then allow her to be what she will, and grow in your own inner strength and comfort. You will be far better off for having done it, even if you don't get any of the approval you're looking for.

The hardest challenge I've had with family is resisting their efforts to push my buttons. They can certainly do it, and I certainly want to react. But if I do, I invite more and more of it, at higher and higher levels. So I ignore it and move on, and if they wish to remain their own shallow, heartless selves, more power to them. I just won't be around to enjoy it.